i HATE flu, sore throat and something else...

Again, this morning woke up with throat on fire.... Sian... Woke up at 7.30 and school starts at 10? Even more sian... Went to school for e stupid 2 hour lecture... Watching heroes... Lols... Prolly the only words i rmb were posttest and pretest... =_= which wont do any good... Like duh...

Work was so-so la.... Went down to the Sony Roadshow to help around abit... Throat hurt, AND PLUS, those freaking smokers who passed by kept blowing smoke at my direction... Bloody idiots... Like smoke so much eh? Breathe some through your assholes sometime if u can... I should have downed at least 3 litres of water by then... At around 3 i mean... mp3 was doing way better than digicam and videocam... POWER! The day grew increasingly boring... And i got caught in the rain TWICE... AND AMK HUB IS GODDAMNED airconditioned... WTF... Seriously man... Can literally freeze my ass off? Jesus....

By late evening... Throat getting worse... Like something's in my throat... Damn that sucks big time... Downed another 1.5 litres bottle from Cheers... Still think it isnt enough.... Were sharing jokes with Rick and Justin when there was a ceasefire... All of us had good laughs... Lols... By the time we had everything packed up, i nearly wanna collapse already... Daaaamn tired...

Msged her again... Asking if she will be coming tmr... And she said no... Not wokring already... And i replied, with why... WTH is wrong with me... Seriously... I asked her that qn like a day ago and i just forgotten about it... Dammit... Never replied after that... Actually, been thinking to myself... Why do i do wrong things at the wrong time? Im not trying to get attention... Impossible, im through with that... Or maybe im just plain stupid... I really dont know... Its like dreams are just shattered by my own hands... sounds very much like WTF... But yeah... Thats what i think... doing things without even considering the outcome? Thats not me... Cant be... Probably just need to sit down alone... And just relax for a moment... Recollect everything and try to be a better person...

Looks like im devulging everything i wanna say into this post... Lols... but since i have no one to say it to... So, make it known then... At least i'll feel better... Firstly... About relationships... I, how to say, im not the relationship kinda guy... Like those who can just approach any girl and ask for their number... My personal views on having/not having a girlfriend is that having one is good, as you'll have companionship, someone to be with and someone to take care of and be taken care of by... With past experiences, i feel that sometimes... its best not to rush into relationships that quickly... It will, inevitably, result in breakups... Not having one means you can spend more times with your friends, have more time on hand for school and work...

In truth, i really find my life boring... not the causal "boring" that we usually say in school... But the empty kind of boring... Like its just a hollow shell... Just air inside... Im not implying that i wanna get a girlfriend or anything... Just speaking my mind thats all... School in the morning and work in the evening... Its like an endless repitition... Day by day, week after week.... Just passes like that... I feel that i need something more in life... Probably go out with my friends more... Try to bond with them, be even closer friends... what i have to do is just settle down, and consider my options... Either play games like a crazy lunatic everyday and fail everything, or study properly like everybody else...

After all that crap-talk, in which i believe most people would think it is, i really got to experience true friendship today... Yes, i admit. Im quite a slcaker in school... Most of the time i depend on other people... Well, at least i noe that my friends do care about me... Thanks for giving me a chance... Really appreciate that...

Shall draw this long post to a close... Lest other people read until fall asleep...
Till next post..
Cheers